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^ I have moved there, so add me if you want to read more of my stuff.
I added some of you & thankfully added back.
See ya there hopefully ^_^
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[Sun - Jun 11
02:12am] |
Opening Credits: Bloc Party - Banquet
Waking Up Scene: Death Can For Cutie - We laugh Indoors
Car Driving Scene: Oasis - Wonderwall
High School Flashback Scene: SMASHING PUMPKINS - 1979
Nostalgic Scene: Finch - Without You Here
Bitter, Angry Scene: The Cranberries - Zombie
Break-up Scene: Staind - Outside
Regret Scene: Death Cab For Cutie - A Lack Of Color
Nightclub/Bar Scene: The Bravery - Unconditional
Fight/Action Scene: Korn - Freak On A Leash
Lawn Mowing Scene: Local H - Bound For The Floor
Sad, breakdown scene: Damien Rice - The Blower's Daughter
Death Scene: 12 Stones - Crash
Funeral Scene: The Wallflowers - One Head Light
Mellow/Pot-smoking Scene: Red Hot Chili Peppers - Scar Tissue
Dreaming About Someone Scene: Keane - Somewhere Only We Know
Sex Scene: Incubus - Here In My Room
Contemplation Scene: Beck - Everybody's Gotta Learn Sometime
Chase Scene: Wu Tang Clan - Shame On A Nigga [ :p ]
Happy Love Scene: Citizen Cope - If Theres Love
Happy Friend Scene: Foo Fighters - Everlong
Miscellaneous Scene: Bush - Glycerine
Goodbye Scene: Snow Patrol - Run
Closing Credits: Moby - Porcelain
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[Sun - May 28
05:18am] |
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only use two words:
1. Yourself:
very loving
2. Your car:
functions well
3. Your Hair:
really soft
4. Your mother:
quite misunderstood
5. Your Father:
^
6. Your Favorite Item:
hair iron
7. Your Dream Last Night:
very odd
8. Your Favorite Drink:
strawberry daiqueri
9. Your Dream Home:
beach house
10. The Room You Are In:
aly's room
11. Your Pet:
none unfortunately
12. Your fear:
getting old
13. Where You Want to be in Ten Years:
succesful happy
14. Who did you hang out with last nite:
ur mom
15. What You're Not:
an idiot
16. Your Best Friend:
a few
17. One of Your Wish list Items:
alotta money
18. Your Gender:
female nigg.
19. The Last Thing You Did:
puke alot
20. What You Are Wearing:
alys clothes [ROFL]
21. Your Favorite Weather:
sunny breezy
22. Your Favorite Book:
too many
23. The Last Thing You Ate:
wendys fries
24. Your Life:
very random
25. Your Mood:
tired blah
26. The last person you talked to on the phone:
my mom
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"I love Susy. Really, I do. It's funny how close her and I have gotten since we've known eachother for absolutely forever. I would be so lost without her. She's younger than I am though I forget and I go to her alot. Speaking of people I want to be happy, she's it. She's so miserable all the time and sometimes I just feel so inadequate because I don't know what to tell her. She deserves some luck. For someone not to let her down for once.
I was looking through old entries of friends & whatnot & I happened to stumble upon that paragraph [derived from Aly's journal of course] I adore that girl more than life to say the least. /Sigh. What she wrote made me think alot even if it's months old. Especially that last line. I've come to the realization I doubt I'll ever meet anyone that won't let me down that I would be willing to give everything to. Atleast I know she hasn't let me down at all, and a selected few."
^^^Few months old. It was a private entry. & to put it lightly, I don't want to feel that way ever again. & considering the current circumstances, I hope I don't have to. :)
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07:23pm] |
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If anyone else tells me what is good and what isn't good for me AGAIN, I'm going to slice their head off. I don't think it's fucking fair to live in a world where everyone tries to dominate you. Why can't I just be happy.
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| FOR THE PERSON THAT ASKED ME TO UPDATE<3 |
[Fri - May 05
09:37am] |
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Today started off really well for the most part, despite the fact I need to memorize I speech that I only know ONE LINE of by 6 period and study for a quiz that I have in 5th. The joy. IDK HOW I'm going to do it, if it's even possible. It goes without saying that I'm PRAYING for 2:30 to come around. Anyhow, I had two extremely opposing discussions in 2nd period[ I surprisingly haven't engaged in one of those in a while], and it sucks that the 3 people involved that I've known for YEARS.. I felt for those few moments I didn't know at all in a way. For one, the first discussion delt with racism & prejudism.
One of my friends said she wouldn't marry someone who was Black because.. she didn't want to "mess up" her childs lifev.I honestly don't know how I DIDN'T SCREAM, to be honest with you. I take pride in my self control I guess lol. Now, I would sympathize if she said she knows how hard it is for Bi-racial kids [not because of their hair type -_- but for legitimate motives] and that she wouldn't want them to suffer because they do suffer, in particular circumstances, but that it wouldn't change who she would marry. However, she didn't say that & what she did indeed say was extremely prejudice. I'm probably the most non-racist person you will ever meet. EVER. I'm the type of person that.. enters essay contests for the Holocaust & shit lol. All ethnicities are equal and no one is better than anyone. I understand that.. people have preferences in terms of what attracts them or not. I HAVE preferences. Everyone does. That does not justify the fact that you can't control who you care about. The moment I said that she rebuttled with "yes you CAN control who you care about." WTF. I was already fuming at this point but I sustained my composure. If that's how the world functioned, I promise you it wouldn't be as fucked up or miserable as it is today. Things happen. You can't dominate everything and when you love someone, NONE of those "preferences",or any barrier for that matter, harbor any significance AT ALL. Let's just say any sort of ignorance definitely pushes my buttons.
It sucks though because these are people I care about that feel this way.
It's apparent that I have a really strong character, and I always have and will. And I'm extremely proud of that. I just believe I'm right 99% of the time. Fuck it, I think I'm right 100% of the time lol [on SOME subjects, I'll be the first to admit I DON'T KNOW EVERYTHING, obviously]. That's because what I believe is right, can be supported with facts and true beliefs. I usually win every arguement, but that doesn't mean I'm not open-minded to the other person's opinion because celebrating eachothers individuality is one of the greatest things we have and take for granted. I just despise when people don't open up THEIR minds when I'm very willing to do the same. Talk about wishful thinking, lol. Very idealistic, I know. /Sigh. I guess you can say I wish people were more like me.. and maybe the world would be a better place. I KNOW I sound contradicting when I say I love individuality & then protest for people to be more like me. But I mean that for people to.. be more open minded, not necessarily believing everything I do. People think I debate because I enjoy fighting. & I don't, even though I can empathize completely with that theory because it comes off that way. I just.. enjoy discussing things and making that person perceive something from a differing perspective. If everyone was the same, how terrible & mundane would everything be? [ and I suppose thats why ignorance exists ]The answer is immensely terrible. I LOVE individuality and someone who embraces being different and their identity. Probably one of the best qualities anyone can ever have. Because when we die, it doesn't matter if you were the president of the United States, or if you were an employee at McDonalds. If you had character, and embraced it.. if you were true to YOURSELF and your beliefs[..beliefs with true legitimacy -_-], then you lived a fufilled life, my friend.
& then I wonder why everyone wants me to be a Lawyer. ha. But THIS is why I want to be a writer.
WOW. Long as hell. Um.. yeah. Lol. :)
I haven't written an entry with actual substance in while. and YES it was for a certain tall, lip-ring wearing, gumby-like boy. And.. I honestly thing just knowing him, and experiencing all the things I have thus far with him, has made me enforce all of the things I mentioned here, all of my beliefs, everything basically. Best part about it is.. he probably has no idea lol. Not like I didn't feel what I feel about those beliefs before because I did, and rather strongly of course. But.. he has made that much more of an impact. & for someone.. to make a POSITIVE impact, ON ME? Well, I hold that person very fuckin' high in my book. Wow.. whos? gay? ::raises hand:: haha. Anywho, Feel special ho :D. MWA to joo. You better have read this shit -_- Have a nice day, yo. :p
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[Wed - Apr 19
10:17am] |
Had an insightful conversation w/ Alan yesterday. He has regained his place as, better than everyone once again lol. I miss him. alot. :/ But as of yesterday I've realized he's someone I can lose ABSOLUTE touch with [unfortunatly] but pick up right where we left off, and that makes me incredibly happy. I can safely say he'll always surpass being a friend and transcend into the significance of "family". Sometimes it's scary how I regard him higher than family sometimes. I guess I ultimately came to the conclusion that I can be quite the masochist midst of the conversation.
mas·o·ch·ism (măs'-kĭz'm)
n.
A willingness or tendency to subject oneself to unpleasant or trying experiences.
Definitely me, in a nut shell.
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[Tue - Mar 28
09:45am] |
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Another turning point,a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go.
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why.
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time.
It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind.
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time.
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial.
For what it's worth, it was worth all the while
It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life.
Jizzworthy song :). School's alot more liveable now, I dunno why O_O Still pretty homo though lol. Claudia's leaving tom. to Orlando :'(! The lucky slut is going to miss the rest of the week. I'm going to miss her chinky self like hell :p & then Juan [her boyfriend, aha.. the irony] is leaving on Friday and they're going to spend the weekend together at Disney. Thus, they own my fucking life. :( /dies. UMMMMMMMM my back hurts? I slept 729242 hours yesterday, amen. & I hate my spanish class.. alot -_- Perhaps it's because I'm spanish illiterate? Whateva.
pz yo. ♥
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[Mon - Mar 20
09:34am] |
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For having barely an hour of sleep it's been a pretty damn good day. :D
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[Thu - Mar 16
10:32am] |
I jammed my finger in the door this morning. I'm a cripple :(
3 more classessssss.
ah.
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[Tue - Mar 14
10:20pm] |
1) How old do you wish you were?
18, because then I'd be legal.
2) Where were you when 9/11 happened?
Mrs. Lleonart's Math Class... when I actually excelled in math x_x
3) What do you do when vending machines steal your money?
I abuse them :)
4) do you consider your self kind?
Very
6) If you had to get a tattoo, where would it be?
Dunno, I would never have one.
7) If you could be fluent in any other language, what would it be?
Italian
8) Do you know your neighbors?
Unfortunatly yes lol. [ I have reason to dislike them]
9)what do you consider a vacation?
No school :)
10) Do you follow your horoscope?
Hahahaaaa. Not really.
11) Would you move for the person you loved?
Yep.
12) Are you touchy feely?
Not when it's inappropriate o_O lol
13) Do you believe that opposites attract?
That will be the title of my biography, point blank.
14) Dream job?
Actress
15) Favorite channel?
Vh1/Mtv
17) Favorite place to go on weekends?
Anywhere but my house.
18) Showers or Baths?
Showers
19) Do you paint your nails?
Seldom
22) Do you trust people easily?
Nopeee.
23) What are your phobias?
Getting old.
24) Do you want kids?
Mhm! ^_^
25) Do you keep a handwritten journal?
I do actually, an old one.
26) Where would you rather be right now?
Anywhere with that one person that makes me forget about everything.
28) Who makes you feel guilty?
My mother -______-
29) heavy or light sleep?
I don't know.
30) Are you paranoid?
I can be.
31) Are you impatient?
My worst flaw.
32) Who can you relate to?
My closest friends. Aly being one of them.
33) How do you feel about interracial couples?
I think that's awesome as hell that they don't let anything intefere with their feelings, that's how it should be. Society is a bitch.
34) Have you been burned by love?
Hmm..
35) Whats your life motto?
Everything that happens in life is significant and for a purpose.
36) WHATS YOUR MAIN RINGTONE ON YOUR PHONE?
I don't have one I have it in vibrate always.
37) WHAT WERE YOU D0ING AT MIDNIGHT LAST NIGHT?
Sleeping.
38) WHAT DID THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE ON YOUR CELL PHONE SAY?
"Hey it's Carmen, whats up" lol'
39) WHOS BED DID YOU SLEEP IN LAST NIGHT?
Mine?
40) WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
Green nukkah.
41) MOST RECENT MOVIE THAT YOU WATCHED?
Walk The Line, weeee.
42) NAME 3 THINGS THAT YOU HAVE ON YOU AT ALL TIMES?
Phone, & uh...
43) WHAT'S THE COLOR OF YOUR BEDSHEETS?
Purple & Green & other colors.
44) HOW MUCH CASH DO YOU HAVE ON YOU RIGHT NOW?
30 something
45) What is your favorite part of the chicken?
Breast. -_- Go ahead & laugh at me.
46) What's your favorite town/city?
Venice, Italy. I need to move there, like right now.
47) I can't wait to/(til)...?
Weekend.
48) When was the last time you saw your mom?
This afternoon
49) When was the last time you saw your dad?
On Sunday.
50) When was the last time you talked to them?
Dad? Yesterday on the phone. Mom? A few hours ago on the phone.
51) Who got you to join myspace?
Aly of course.
52) What did you have for dinner LAST NIGHT?
I don't remember but it made me feel like crap after.
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[Mon - Feb 20
08:28pm] |
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LOOK AT ME.
What is your current hair color?: dark brown
Whats your natural color?:dark brown
What color are your eyes?: dark brown.
Current Piercings?: 4
Straight Hair or Curly:straight.
CURRENTLY WEARING.
What shirt are you wearing?: burgundy tshirt
Shorts: blue plaid capris
Shoes?:mismatching socks o_O
Necklaces: some silver one with studded diamonds or whatever
THIS OR THAT.
Rock or rap: rock.
Coffee or Hot Cocoa: hot cocoa.
Wild Night out or Romantic Night: romantic.
Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate.
Hummer or Sports Car: sports car. dale.
History or Science: history<3
Sleep in or Early to rise: sleep in
Beach or Boardwalk: beach.
Hoodie or Tee Shirt: hoodie
Night or Day: night.
High School or college: O_O
California or Florida: Probably California.
Simple Plan or Good Charlotte: Simple Plan
HAVE YOU EVER.
Hugged someone?: yes.
Been on the phone until the sun came up?: yeah
Put a song on repeat for more than an hour?: mhmmm
Laughed so hard you almost peed your pants?: lmfao, I actually had to run to the bathroom so I didn't pee in my pants.
THE LAST.
person you talked to in person? my aunt
person you talked to online? aly
person you hugged: angel
person that called you: damian
drink?: water
laugh?: talking to Damian
long story: On Saturday.
last time you had a shower?: Yesterday. I need to shower now ;/
RANDOM.
Do you like surveys: They entertain me
What kind of shampoo do you use?: Treseme for now
Do you get along with your parents? Yes
Are you old enough to vote?: No :/
Do you have mental breakdowns?: Lol, sorta
Did you ever tell your parents you didn't feel good so you didn't have to go to school?: yep :)
CURRENT.
-Current Mood: bothered, weird.
-Current music: the strokes
-Current Thing I Ought To Be Doing: Putting my laundry away, then showering, then hw. fun shit.
-Current Windows Open: Myspace.
-Current desktop picture: A picture my friend made.
-Current Favorite Music Artist?: I've been obsessing over Kurt Cobain lately...
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[Thu - Feb 09
10:04am] |
NO MORE BRACES :D
& I haven't been happier.
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[Mon - Feb 06
07:52am] |
So since livejournal was being a douchebag & deleted my entry, I'll summarize the finer points I mentioned.
1.) I'm in the library supposed to be doing research but I simply don't care.
2.) I'm getting a cold.
3.) I have a headache.
4.) I want nothing more than to put on my headphones and listen to Kurt Cobain.
5.) My goal for today is to just survive, watch That 70's Show, drink cuban coffee, & sleep.
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My birthday is on Saturdayyyyyyy
<3
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[Wed - Jan 25
10:36am] |
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BTV is interviewing kids about the recent uniform enforcements. Everyone is remarking on grills & how they should be permitted. This implicates to me that my generation is going down hill. The end.
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[Thu - Jan 05
10:30am] |
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALY!
Bored. As hell. Someone shoot me.
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[Mon - Feb 28
01:06pm] |
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the bell just rang. fcat is over for the day. andreina is cracking up as i type this lol. i win<3 g`byes
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| ..what a mighty good man! |
[Thu - Dec 23
03:43pm] |
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Christmas eve is tomorrow, I cannot wait. Best Yr Ever is the shit. Ari&I need to go to a kareoke bar one of these days. &Thats about it hoes<3
You're "Bike Scene", You could be
someone"s best best or their worst ex. You
always seem to be wrapped around someone's
finger.
Which taking back sunday song are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
^ I <3 'em.
Edit; Dudes, one of my good ass friends, Jarek [
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) shatterwithin] wrote a few months ago "The Perfect Christmas" in his journal which was the perfect christmas in his eyes. READ IT. its the best christmas story you've ever heard, I guarentee it.
"The perfect Christmas:
I would like to spend Christmas somewhere in New England. In a small town. With some cobblestone roads, a diner at the corner. A nice small town. Like the one in Gilmore Girls or something.
I would like to go up there with my friends and rent a small house with the group of them. So we could spend our very own Christmas there. A place with a chimney and everything. The best we could find.
We would make that house feel as warm and toasty as possible. So everything would be welcome in a Christmas spirit. It would have lights. Mistletoe all around, under doorways, in the hall, everywhere. There would be a big tree all lit up, the bottom full of presents. The chimney would have a small but warm fire going and there would be stockings there. Homemade too, with all of our names. A table with milk and cookies would be set next to it, just for the sake of the season.
And we would all be hanging out. We would all be sitting about. On the sofas, on a chair, on the floor, wherever we could find. We would be wearing all these cheesy Christmassy sweaters. Some lame turtlenecks. Hell, a ton of us would be wearing cheesy Santa hats, I know I would. We would be drinking eggnog, feeling happy, but calm, and talking about all the times we've passed together.
Though some of us would be having the time of our lives, there might be a couple of us with some problems in their head. Two people who hopelessly care for each other and want to be together but the moment never seems right. A person who might be feeling a little homesick or misses somebody else.
Then, because it's all friends and we make the rules, we open the presents at midnight. All this after a night of the greatest calming Christmas party we've ever had.
We start opening the presents, and we adore absolutely everything we've gotten. Things couldn't feel better. Everyone seems to have gotten us very nice things and you can tell that they all came from the heart.
Then when we're done opening our presents, we realize that there are still some opened boxes. With the "To" filled out, but missing a "From." The respective person or persons open the presents and get the most perfect thing ever. It was just what they needed. And those that had problems are feeling almost at the top of their game.
We wonder where these presents came from, and as we wonder, we hear some bells. We look out the window to see where the sound came from and realize that it just started snowing.
We go outside to enjoy the snow and everybody is hugging each other. "MERRY CHRISTMAS!" they say to each other amidst hugs and kisses. Everybody's happy. All but the failed couple.
They walked a bit slower, spectating all this happiness but still slightly worried about themselves.
The guy is standing by the doorway. Seeing all his best friends enjoying the night, when the girl walks behind him and taps his back. He turns around and sees her pointing up to the mistletoe. They kiss and from that one kiss, thegreatest relationship grows. It was the perfect moment for them.
Then, everybody feeling so happy, they decide to look up at the beautifully clear starry night. All the stars shining so brilliantly. Everybody is holding somebody. A significant other, a friend. Some of them are even under blankets, staying close to each other to fight off the chills.
Then as they look up at the sky, they see a shadow moving across it. And if they were happy before, they now realize that their hearts are the warmest that they've ever been and they are completely content with life.
THAT is the greatest Christmas. EVER."
Hope yall like it, Cause I sure did ;D
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08:03pm] |
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I love bibi more than anyone. ha.
Happy Birthday Love<3 you know how I feel for you.
&There are no words to express it.
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